Birthday Clouds. Less is More.
I’m now learning to build my self esteem — not from career, car, house — but rather from simply being present and compassionate while also embracing a slower, less outwardly productive pace. Finding my yin side after years of being yang has been tricky, even while leaning into my yoga practice and daily time in nature.
On the other hand, with no attention focused on me from the outside world, I am free to explore to abandon, all of my creative possibilities, discover parts of myself along the way. No longer building business brands with my creativity and organizational side, I can tap into the subconscious and the unexplored — beyond a creative brief and with no intent, other than to discover what is to be found.
Not needing to hit a mark and create a design solution, I can push out work that may be adored and disliked by the audience, consecutively, with no investment, other than to be provocative.
I’m working outside of Art as a commodity and just creating without monetary association. I’m pushing in to new territory and continuing to innovate. I know I’m not there yet but am gaining momentum in my ability to paint and create, sharing my point of view.
My desire right now is to find solutions that embrace both abstract and figurative approaches — creating all encompassing art experiences, that simultaneously ground you to the beauty of the earthly realm, while also nudging the viewer to peer into the ethereal experience, just beyond.
Exploring Dualities. Yin & Yang. Tree & Sky. Sun & Moon. Flower and Emotion. Earth and Devotion. Outer seeing and Inner knowing. Elevating nature to a place of worship. Finding connection to the universal.
My objective in moving to New Mexico was to allow myself more time and space, to think, to create, to connect to nature and others. To live more deeply.
Before I had my ambitiousness pay off while owning more, shopping, traveling, influencing … but also felt removed from myself and others. My life felt more contractual to the expectations of whatever age I was at. And this started in my early 30’s, when I pivoted into a full-time focus on pushing forward in my career and investments.
It’s a very counter intuitive place as outwardly it appears so “unsuccessful.” And yet emotionally it feels richer and more achievable, less is more. The Universe offered up a Birthday present in an evening walk full of dramatic clouds - each of these encounters was a little landscape painting of drama and abstraction — such a treat for a painter who lives in this abstract world often. While living simply I’m more often now finding contentment, inner peace, Sattva.
